Farewell

Somewhere in this city you are now here dreaming about your dreams while I am wide awake thinking about what might have been. It was almost perfect between you and me. The world seemed to revolve around us while we were chasing down adventures enticing our path. It was a crazy journey- an adventure that others ever wanted to have that never came across their entire lifetime. It was perfect though it seems but they are not.

 No, it was not just summer loving. The feeling still lingers though it has been more than a year since we last saw each other. I wish I would not have let go of your hand while you were still holding mine. I wish I could have stared at your face for as long as I possibly can. I could have embraced you up to the last second during our last night alone. I would not have let go of you if I just knew that I could not stand not having you by my side knowing that you are just around somewhere far from me here within this small city. 

How I wanted to see you, to touch you, and to be with you, but my heart does not have the guts to do any of those for I have already let go of you and that was what I have told you and that was what I believed in the whole time that you were away. Now that you are around, I know that it is all coming back, but this is not how it is suppose to be.

How I wish I could tell you that I waited for you just like what I have promised, but that remains a wishful thinking, knowing that we are suppose to move on and head back home where we can be our old selves again. No longer a couple of carefree spirits running around the streets of the city where everybody knows everybody. All what is left is a bundle of memories that we may reminisce in times of loneliness, when we can comfort ourselves with the illusion of joy or happiness, whatever applies to our hearts.

Now, it is better to leave things unsaid and undone, for they may just give birth to the feelings that long been buried in the past. Its ghost is indeed a beautiful memoirs shared by two people who once comforted and fell for each other. Faithful enough to its word, those are merely memories of past lovers and nothing more than that.